11.29.09
A walk to remember
Un ange frappe à ma porte
Est-ce que je le laisse entrer
Ce n’est pas toujours ma faute
Si les choses sont cassées
Le diable frappe à ma porte
Il demande à me parler
Il y a en moi toujours l’autre
Attiré par le danger
And that’s all that i can say..I’d have never imagined the reallity exactly in the way it is now..Obvious enough for me! Can u be an angel to make my demons run away?! no…u can’t ..neighter do i..I’ll manage by myself…There are two weeks lefts until it will be totally over..Forgive & foget,but only this time,in other future ocassions do not make same mistakes twice..Yeah..like i said..soon it will come the end..cause i know that this time..we will become literally strangers..No-on can deny it..Consequently ..i won’t give a damn ..No it’s not the beginning it’s the end & things will never gonna be the same again.iT’s the final countdown..Ask yourself just how luck do u feel..Enjoy your life,kid!(oh,i forgot,u’re not a kid anymore,that’s what u said:P)i think u are..nevermind! As i said before,enjoy your life!
11.28.09
still kill em all.
nu incerca sa te revansezi doar ca sa nu ma simt eu prost, ca nu tine cu mine. daca nu vrei, mai bine nu te revansezi deloc. apropos, cum ramane cu frumoasa aia a ta? :>
ladyinblack
this could be heaven or this could be hell
the show must go on. and it will. and i don’t care what will happen. like you said, i won’t live for the others. why should i? they surely don’t live for me :-j they live for another “other”. then why shouldn’t i make my own way? i don’t give a damn anymore if the others care about me or if they don’t. right now, there are two persons in my life i really care about and i don’t know what would i do if something bad happens to them. my real sister and you, my sysa. you’re the only ones i trust in and i really care about . none of the other persons i know now can’t reach this..dunno-how-to-call-it (place, maybe 
).. you two did 
and i’m sure i said this before. what about the others now? i don’t care anymore what they think about me,if they like me or not. i won’t do the same mistake again. as long as i did it twice. i won’t trust people so easily anymore. friends – relative term. boyfriends-full-of-shit term. there’s no Prince Charming coming on a white horse to your window. at least not for me. i won’t wait for him. i’ll live my life, travelling around the world. i want instabillity. i don’t want to have my family with kids. i want to be myself a kid and do whatever i want with my money, without even thinking i’ve got a bunch of kids and my husband waiting for me at home. no. i don’t even want a “home”. i want a trailer which can be the place i use instead of my house. i already see me in a car, listening to music, driving pretty fast “on a dark desert highway”, having my best friend (yeah, you come with me ) ) standing on my right. just living the moment. that’s what i want to do all my life. and when i’ll be old enough to hate me because i don’t have my own family,i’ll start it over again with travelling around the world. that’s what i really wanna do. it’s exactly the opposite of what i would’ve answered if you asked me, let’s say… two months ago, “what do you want from your life?”. i would’ve said “family, kids, harmony”. no more good girl,with family aspirations. fun sounds better 
ladyinblack
11.27.09
Amen~!
For ever and ever…they say that the real life is the one lived for the others. they say it’s all just a matter of time and place.they say it would be best for u to care about them ..cause that’s how u gonna learn ..by making mistakes….u fall & rise again..But…what if i don’t wanna make all these? What if I choose to see the signs and to go straight away where i want to?! What if i want to live my life just for me and give a damn about the others?! What does it matter what they say? The images they sell are illusion and dream,in other words..dishonesty! Fuck them all! Live your life and do not care about the others..Don’t stop learning just because they say u’re becomming somehow a nerd…Don’t get drunk in clubs just to follow the crowd and preted u’re like them! cause u’re not! u’re not like they agree..Never feel bad for what they say ..No-one does nothing good for your sake..U’re the last,but not the least! time to grow up!..learn to walk on a rope suspended in the air, being surrounded by flames…learn to act like a professional, to be one of them.Always have trust in yourself and always do your best .no matter what! it’s just about u! be good in everything u do! what I give out will make up what I’ll receive..And i believe in me! Leave out all the rest! Show must go on!
11.22.09
Este ceva premeditat..sau doar o simpla coincidenta???? tacerea imi spune k e doar o coincidenta…..prea multa iscusinta pt cineva k tn..si totusi? Dc chiar acele cuv? Aveai in mod cert siguranta k voi fi curioasa si voi cauta?..si imi voi da seama ?Prea multe intrebari fara raspuns…evident k voi gasi rasp la ele..pot doar face presupuneri…destule…multe…chiar prea multe…dar k ele raman…si dc toate astea?? Nu kredeam k voi ajunge sa urask o singura persoana atat de mult si..in acelasi timp………………… ..SI nu pot da erase…cel putin nu akm..DAMN IT!! ..si e tot ce mi-as fi dorit sa pot face…Asta e!…zilelele trec si..si eu voi face totul pt a fi din nou bn! bn pt mn..k in rest….ramane doar cenusa! si NU vreau alte scantei…Ramai on..pe Messenger..si sa ai parte de cele mai plkte coversatii! doar faci ce stii uh mai bine! eu ..PAS!
11.17.09
Inceputul sfarsitului..
Tout l’or des hommes
Ne vaut plus rien
Si tu es loin de moi
Tout l’amour du monde
Ne me fait rien
Alors surtout, ne change pas
As putea sa mai spun si altceva?! da…dar ..nu ar mai avea rost,,simt nevoia sa-ti spun ce simt.! si totusi,,nici eu nu stiu ce simt,,,doar k nu e bn..nu e bn delok! imi pare raw k mi-a pasat..atunci mai mult..akm..akm totul atarna de un fir de ata..atat de fragil..oare va rezista? no chance…a trecut deja prin prea multe incercari..doar sa fie f solid..ceea ce nu prea ar fi cazul de fata…eh…vorba ta…sa fim sanatosi..k norocul..ni-l facem singuri,,,stii ce??! kred k ti-ai ales bn profilul…ti se potriveste,..si aici nu voi detalia..ar fi prea multe de spus…!
Nu voi alerga in van! Nu voi alerga dupa himere! Nu si de data asta! Ramai k bn..akm..si..kand se va termina!Fa ce vrei,kand vrei si unde vrei! E viata ta si faci ce vrei k ea! Nu te pot schimba,insa eu raman la fel! Vom merge mai departe si vom uita! akm urmeaza tezele..si vreau sa dau tot ce am mai bun! makar la acel capitol…dak la altele..pare k nu ma intereseaza sau afecteaza! Nu voi mai face nimic pentru a schimba ceva..nu tine numai de mine..si poate k ai dreptate kand spuy k nu ma implik,,dar..am feelingul k mi-as face raw dak as face asta! de aceea..pare k nu imi pasa..! Asta e…tot vina ta ramane,,,Nu pot da mai mult dekat mi se ofera!
11.07.09
i really fucking miss you.
yep, i miss you. and you. and you, even if i don’t totally agree with it. and you. and you. and you. and you. you all know, who “you ” are )
“nothing to lose, loving you again”
zicea celebra (mai mult sau mai putin 
) melodie de la RED – already over. eu zic mai degraba “nothing to gain”. i never do the same mistake three times. i know it’d be the second time, but it won’t. it happens to make the same mistake twice, but three times never ever. theoretically, you’ve got one more shot, but practically, you don’t. “ANA” tells you something? it should. and it’s so fucking bad if it doesn’t, cause that means you’re such a dumb kid. and i doubt it. so.. “ANA” once again should open your eyes.. g’bye :-h
ladyinblack
11.01.09
where the good times gone?
yep, you proved me wrong. and i thank you for that i feel better now.. and while reading the first posts i remembered all the fun we had when it was summer 8-> i think i’ll have a review on the archives tonight ) i miss those times so much ) but now it’s so damn good 
at least i see you everyday \:d/ and i kick your ass ) B-)
hmm.. and about the other you.. yeah, you proved me wrong, too. i like it better now. not giving a shit, not having a worry. it feels so damn good to feel free. just as my sis said..i wouldn’t give up the game just because i wanna see if it has something more to offer, but mainly, i gave up. friends, yeah, it’d be enough i guess
ladyinblack
